Wednesday, 22 October 2014

The Voice Of Addiction


There are times at night where you feel the sense of depression hitting hard against you, feeling sad without knowing why, memories that hurt flowing by. The more you tried to forget 'em, the harder they won't go away. It seemed like they've been a part of you for so long and you have no power to win 'em over...

Well, it's nice to finally meet you.
I've been waiting for your call.
I've noticed you've been crying,
And I've watched you pace the halls.

Whatever has been hurting you,
I can make it disappear.
You know you have nothing to lose,
Nothing to live for, nothing to fear.

Thank you, for your invention.
I'll be sure to not leave your side.
We'll become very fast acquainted. 
My naive child, there's no use trying to hide.

I should probably introduce myself,
I am your very own addiction.
But you can not be angry with me,
I am your own self-conviction.

I bet you feel rather stupid,
Falling right into my lap.
I'm a master at manipulation.
You'll never escape my trap.

How does it feel to dance with the Devil?
For he and I are one in the same.
God, has completely abandoned you,
So you might as well stay in the game.

I guess you think you're special,
But your sobriety has only lasted a year.
I'm still around every corner,
In the back of your mind,
I'm your greatest fear.

I'll always be your dirty little secret,
I won't disappear over time.
Twenty years from now you may falter,
And I'll be the first thing that comes to mind.

A vicious cycle, that's what your thinking.
But I'm only speaking the truth.
I'm Satin's weapon of mass destruction.
The silent killer of America's youth.

I'm a genius when you think of it.
Everyone's looking for some Armageddon war,
But what the fools don't realize,
Is everyday Armageddon walks through their front door. 

Wednesday, 17 September 2014

Review on ll The Fault In Our Stars ll


      Haven't really got a chance to watch this movie until now although it was out three months ago. I've read the book but I insist on watching the full movie version and it turned out not disappointed. I don't usually blog or crave hard about some movie because I'd totally forget about it and get over it moments later. But regarding to this one? I know its a must for me. It was indeed amazing of one sick love story for all I can say. Both of them played their role well, from the beginning till the end of it. I really love both of them even their names sounded great; Augustus Waters // Hazel Grace Lancaster. I cried, I couldn't hold my tears although I tried to. I don't get some people who after watching this and told me they didn't cry or it was boring like dude at least a little bit eyes waterly maybe? I loved the parts when they were together and had flirting conversations face to face or through phone, they are so cute! :') I somehow find Gus's best friend, Issac, sort of handsome with his black sunglasses on. ((Chuckles)) Alright, not gonna brag much about it, you just really have to watch it if you haven't. It's unregretable, trust me! 

Here are some of the quotes/scenes from the movie I found it meaningful & liked 'em; 

"I'm on a roller coaster that only goes up, my friend." - Augustus Waters
"That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt." - Augustus Waters
"Maybe Okay will be our always. Okay? Okay." - Augustus & Hazel 
"I'd rather not have the robot eyes and let my eyes go blind. Because I do not want to see a world without Augustus Waters." - Issac
"You gave me a forever within the numbered days." - Hazel Grace
"There are infinities numbers between zero and one, there are one point two, one point one two and so on.. I'd love to be with you as long as the infinities numbers, Gus, my love." - Hazel Grace  
"It's our little infinity." - Hazel Grace
"It would be my privilege to have my heart broken by you." - Augustus Waters
"It's just a metaphor. You don't let the thing that will harm your life, kill you." - Augustus Waters 

Saturday, 6 September 2014

20 Facts About Me ll


1. I'm 41kg and 5'3 (short yes i know)
2. I have 3 shades of different skin colour.
3. I read a lot, not textbook but storybooks.
4. I write, bc future author wanna-be (yup i write stories)
5. I eat a lot. At least 5 meals per day. 
6. Love shopping and having weird combinations outfits.
7. Used to be socially awkward but now? Absolutely opposited. 
8. I either talk too much until it annoys you or be quiet the whole day.
9. Get emotionally depressed and mood swings too often.
10. I'm the whatever idgaf kind of girl.
11. Love being part of the Interact Club. 
12. Dislike maths bc mostly daydreaming in class.
13. Arts are never my thing.
14. Swimming and badminton are the only sports I do. 
15. Listen to music everyday bc im born with it getting in my nerves.
16. Never smile properly when taking group pictures.  
17. I'm a slow learner besides Internet fields. 
18. New Zealand is my fav country.
19. Connor Franta is my fav youtuber. 
20. Austin Mahone never fail to get a happy me back bc mahomie 5eva x

Saturday, 23 August 2014

Stop missing everything..


"Perhaps our eyes need to be washed by 
our tears once in a while, so that we can 
see life with clearer view again."
- Alex Tan

why only start to miss when things have changed? why only miss when nothing will 
ever be the same anymore? why only miss when you've gone? why only 
miss when time couldn't reverse back to those precious moments? why only miss 
when there's nothing left but a broken heart? 
why am i starting to miss everything now?..
Memories often tears people apart.. the more you wanted to forget about it,
the more it came to you, the more you remembered.. the more you hurt.
because memories never die.

i wish i could unmeet you.

Friday, 15 August 2014

Heart Of Ice

The beat of rain upon the land
Broken teardrop in my hand
Shattered remains upon the ground
My beating heart the only sound

A twisted tale chiseled in stone
Stories forgotten as the voices drone
Heart of ice, frozen in time
Far away, bells start to chime

The wind whispers through the trees
Voices carried on each breeze
Cries and sobs drown each bell
Secrets kept that no one shall tell

A tear cast aside that came to you
Reflecting anger and lies turned true
A tear that fell, yet went unshed
An unseen symbol filled with dread

Lonesome night to wash away
Heart wrenching pain of another day
The scattered pieces of a broken heart
Sewn together yet fallen apart

Broken tear the remains of a love
That burst to flames sent above
Heart of ice turned to stone
These silent voices start to drone

They tell these tales as through the end
Was at their side until they send
Each tale to lay before these lies
Glittering shards of diamond eyes

This heart of ice is the only link
Chained in black bound by ink
Surviving each cay by only a drop
Lest its beating was ever to stop

As each day slowly wears on
The last shreds of hope are long gone

In the field of grass, of diamond lies
Unseen by all except dreaming eyes
The spirits lie, awaiting the sacrifice
That is to be this heart of ice. 

Friday, 1 August 2014

Here comes another month.


And it's August. It seemed like this year passed really quick or maybe time really does flies. You either catch it breathlessly or you don't. Year 2014 wasn't really a good year I suppose. But yknow what, lets just hope this month will be better than before. 

     Half of the year has gone, and 2015 is only 4 months away, just let that sink in already! most people might say. Each year as I grew older I gained more and more new experiences in life. Well thats pretty cool. But learn new things is one thing and getting older is another.. Do you ever get that feeling when you have no idea what are you doing with your life? why are you even born to be a part of this world? ..just those sort of depressing and lifeless moments yeah because same. I kind of lack of motivations in life lately, to fight for what I'm supposed to. Its lifelessly tiring. Ughh. 
Hoping I'll get those feelings out of me soon.. or I might be really going to go crazyly mad hah.